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 Nov 18, 2004 - 2:11 AM
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Enthusiast  Joined Nov 4, '02 From Davenport Iowa Currently Offline Reputation: 0 (0%)  |
QUOTE I will seriously NEVER get women. hey john what was your theroy on girls agian?  naw ment to add to this to my last post but got distracted: bout of depression after the end of a long term relationship/friendship is normal.. sink into it.. relish in it... take it for all its worth.. feel the pain.. then get over it and move on... its a part of life that sucks but it diffently makes the good times better  life is a roller coaster man... ups and downs --------------------  99 project version 3.0.. hello SEMA 2010 =) |
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Nov 18, 2004 - 2:18 AM
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 Enthusiast Joined Aug 29, '02 From Franklin/Nashville, TN Currently Offline Reputation: 16 (100%) |
QUOTE(NEVERSTOP @ Nov 18, 2004 - 1:11 AM) QUOTE I will seriously NEVER get women. hey john what was your theroy on girls agian? [right][snapback]208430[/snapback][/right] girls... are fxcking stupid... that's my theory. -John- -------------------- AIM==Mynzeyes
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Nov 18, 2004 - 2:25 AM
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 Enthusiast Joined Mar 4, '03 From Kirkland, Washington Currently Offline Reputation: 0 (0%) |
  sorry to get away from the real issue - but i see the resemblence http://mynzeyes.myftp.org/smilies/off-topic2.gif Anyways john - keep ur head up - THINGS HAPPEN FOR A REASON! take this experience and learn from it -------------------- Cruisin down the street in my Infiniti...always lookin for my next trip to Sin City
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Nov 18, 2004 - 2:27 AM
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Enthusiast Joined Aug 29, '02 From Franklin/Nashville, TN Currently Offline Reputation: 16 (100%) |
that's such a bad drawing...
 . i did so much better on Andason.  . -John- -------------------- AIM==Mynzeyes
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Nov 18, 2004 - 2:27 AM
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Enthusiast Joined Mar 4, '03 From Kirkland, Washington Currently Offline Reputation: 0 (0%) |
 i meant that :-) -------------------- Cruisin down the street in my Infiniti...always lookin for my next trip to Sin City
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Nov 18, 2004 - 2:28 AM
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Enthusiast Joined Mar 4, '03 From Kirkland, Washington Currently Offline Reputation: 0 (0%) |
Ur sight entertains me john - incase u care
-------------------- Cruisin down the street in my Infiniti...always lookin for my next trip to Sin City
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Nov 18, 2004 - 2:29 AM
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Enthusiast Joined Aug 29, '02 From Franklin/Nashville, TN Currently Offline Reputation: 16 (100%) |
QUOTE(BlackCelicaGT94 @ Nov 18, 2004 - 1:28 AM) Ur sight entertains me john - incase u care [right][snapback]208441[/snapback][/right] i do, and thank you. i taught myself HTML just to make that stupid site. :x. cause jen was gonna charge me to code it...before she liked me. :x. -------------------- AIM==Mynzeyes
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Nov 18, 2004 - 2:32 AM
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Enthusiast Joined Mar 4, '03 From Kirkland, Washington Currently Offline Reputation: 0 (0%) |
even if i liked u i still would charge u - cuz im broke :-)
-------------------- Cruisin down the street in my Infiniti...always lookin for my next trip to Sin City
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Nov 18, 2004 - 2:39 AM
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Enthusiast Joined Jul 3, '04 From Yakima, WA Currently Offline Reputation: 1 (100%) |
mmm that was deep. i cant say like the others i've had that sammme feeling
but, i have got cheaten one once... that was sh*tty :-/. hey keep ur head up kid.
-------------------- the 1/4 doesnt have patience for a ST.... so we make them ST-T's so atleast we'll sound good going slow.
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Nov 18, 2004 - 3:46 AM
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Enthusiast Joined Aug 31, '04 From VA Currently Offline Reputation: 0 (0%) |
John, I am sure you know who this and the background between someone and I, how long it lasted.
With that being said, coming from my experience from that, the only way I got over that is finding both something and someone to take my mind off of her. After some time passed I can say I'm over her. So, just find someone and or something and use them as your escape from the past and you'll pull through it.
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Nov 18, 2004 - 6:49 AM
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 Enthusiast Joined Jul 14, '03 From Jacksonville, FL Currently Offline Reputation: 2 (100%) |
QUOTE(timbo @ Nov 18, 2004 - 3:46 AM) John, I am sure you know who this and the background between someone and I, how long it lasted. With that being said, coming from my experience from that, the only way I got over that is finding both something and someone to take my mind off of her. After some time passed I can say I'm over her. So, just find someone and or something and use them as your escape from the past and you'll pull through it. [right][snapback]208461[/snapback][/right] Hopefully he'll use me for that. *sigh* Thanks Timmy.. -------------------- |
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Nov 18, 2004 - 7:25 AM
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Enthusiast Joined Sep 21, '02 From Montgomery county/Rockville,MD Currently Offline Reputation: 0 (0%) |
QUOTE(Mynzeyes @ Nov 17, 2004 - 8:18 PM) if you don't feel like reading it...i don't care. background: 6+ years of my life is gone...and despite the desire to be "friends"...we can't, because any attempt to talk to her, i'm accused of being nosey, and it's no longer "any of my concern" or "business". here are some words to marinate on...give your feedback...but i can't promise you that i'll even give a damn... QUOTE Mynzeyes: she's just so consumed Mynzeyes: in making "her own life" Mynzeyes: that i'm being completely shut out Mynzeyes: it's like Mynzeyes: there's no line to differentiate between total involvement Mynzeyes: and complete segregation. Mynzeyes: it's one or the other. Mynzeyes: so when i tryt o simply talk to her Mynzeyes: i'm being nosey Mynzeyes: because she's so amazed by the fact that she's "her own person" Mynzeyes: it's like she's so ****ing thrilled Mynzeyes: that i'm no longer there Mynzeyes: like i was some huge burden on her Mynzeyes: that now...she's free. Mynzeyes: she's no longer a captive Mynzeyes: and she "controls herself" Mynzeyes: and it's just absolutely mesmorizing to think that i could have caused such anguish in her life Mynzeyes: to make things so much ****ing better without me Mynzeyes: i wish Mynzeyes: i could just ****ING GET OVER IT Mynzeyes: BECAUSE THIS DOES NOTHING FOR ME Mynzeyes: all i do Mynzeyes: is sit here Mynzeyes: and ****ing stress over it Mynzeyes: and it gets me ABSOLUTELY NOTHING Mynzeyes: it makes me WORSE Mynzeyes: but i do it anyway Mynzeyes: i still... Mynzeyes: would do anything in this ****ing world for her Mynzeyes: i would still die for her Mynzeyes: but she wouldn't even ****ing notice Mynzeyes: and it eats me Mynzeyes: from the inside out Mynzeyes: until i will only remain a shell of a person Mynzeyes: because i'm too weak to stop it Mynzeyes: ok Mynzeyes: let's put everything aside Mynzeyes: except for me and her Mynzeyes: and what we had. Mynzeyes: what did i get out of this... Mynzeyes: did i get what i wanted? Mynzeyes: no Mynzeyes: did i fail at my "mission" in life? Mynzeyes: yes Mynzeyes: did i lose everything i've ever had Mynzeyes: and ever wanted? Mynzeyes: yes Mynzeyes: do i understand ANYTHING about it? Mynzeyes: no. Mynzeyes: did i learn anything? Mynzeyes: yes. Mynzeyes: what did i learn? Mynzeyes: that there is nothing more to life than CONSTANTLY BEING DISAPPOINTED. Mynzeyes: and constantly longing for that one bit of happiness Mynzeyes: that is always right there... Mynzeyes: but you just can't ****ing grab it Mynzeyes: because to do that Mynzeyes: would be to achieve Mynzeyes: but once you achieve true happiness Mynzeyes: there's no reason to live after that.. Mynzeyes: but the thing they don't tell you Mynzeyes: is that being SO close to said achievement Mynzeyes: and it moving away Mynzeyes: constantly wears at your soul Mynzeyes: and after so long...you have nothing left. Mynzeyes: you don't know who you are Mynzeyes: you don't know what you want Mynzeyes: you dont' know where to go Mynzeyes: you are lost... Mynzeyes: which brings us to where i am. Mynzeyes: lost. Mynzeyes: soulless. Mynzeyes: i have no motivation to do anything Mynzeyes: seeking true happiness is seemingly endless Mynzeyes: and mesmorizingly painful Mynzeyes: throughout every step you must take. Mynzeyes: soooooooooooooooooooooooooooo Mynzeyes: i cry. Mynzeyes: and i wish. Mynzeyes: and i hope. Mynzeyes: but all it does is dig me deeper into my abyss. Mynzeyes: because my ship isn't coming back... Mynzeyes: my ship seemingly doesn't notice that it's a man light... Mynzeyes: it's like... Mynzeyes: wishing that your deceased loved one would return Mynzeyes: no matter what Mynzeyes: nothing is bringing them back Mynzeyes: but you can't help but wish Mynzeyes: and think Mynzeyes: and all it does is hurt Mynzeyes: it solves nothing Mynzeyes: but you just can't ****ing help it Mynzeyes: because you're so attached Mynzeyes: and no matter who tells you your anguish is futile Mynzeyes: you don't care Mynzeyes: because you feel so strongly about something Mynzeyes: that it consumes your entire being Mynzeyes: no matter how much you KNOW that things will never be the same Mynzeyes: you dwell on how much you want it to be Mynzeyes: people say...it's because of "comfort" with that person Mynzeyes: or that situation Mynzeyes: but they don't have a ****ing clue Mynzeyes: sure it's comfortable Mynzeyes: but that's because your heart, mind, and soul are intertwined with something Mynzeyes: and to sever that Mynzeyes: is to shred the threads of life... Mynzeyes: much like the shearn sweater of yesteryear Mynzeyes: such is your being Mynzeyes: because of 1 single person Mynzeyes: in a world of however many billion... Mynzeyes: 1 person..possesses the power to destroy someone Mynzeyes: from the inside Mynzeyes: which is far far worse than any physical pain you could ever fathom Mynzeyes: so... Mynzeyes: i don't care Mynzeyes: what other people think of her Mynzeyes: no one knew her like i did Mynzeyes: no one can change what happened. Mynzeyes: no one can change the pain Mynzeyes: the happiness Mynzeyes: no one can understand my love Mynzeyes: people can understand love Mynzeyes: but they can never understand MY love. Mynzeyes: and...neither will i... Mynzeyes: as much as i don't want to, and know i shouldn't, and know it's not a good idea Mynzeyes: but i wish Mynzeyes: i wish she could see what i've told you Mynzeyes: i don't know that she would even understand me Mynzeyes: at all. Mynzeyes: i'm drained... Mynzeyes: mentally. Mynzeyes: emotionally Mynzeyes: and physically. Mynzeyes: again. Mynzeyes: sigh Mynzeyes: i wish i could keep articulating myself Mynzeyes: but Mynzeyes: i just can't... -John- [right][snapback]208347[/snapback][/right] Damn John...We probably known each other for the longest and there was a point in time where Life was nothing but milk and cookies for you. Im sad to hear this..I didnt even read half way thru your reply till i had enough. It seems like your life has beeen taken from you..Understandable..But John...be a soldier and work at it..If that fails....Graduate school and relocate
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Nov 18, 2004 - 7:50 AM
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Enthusiast Joined Aug 31, '04 From VA Currently Offline Reputation: 0 (0%) |
QUOTE(Jen @ Nov 18, 2004 - 7:49 AM) Hopefully he'll use me for that. *sigh* Thanks Timmy..[right][snapback]208469[/snapback][/right] I am unsure if you are taking it the wrong way or not but, if it's the wrong way then that is not how I meant it. If you are not taking it the wrong way then just don't even mind this post. But, good luck John. |
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Nov 18, 2004 - 7:51 AM
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Enthusiast Joined Jul 14, '03 From Jacksonville, FL Currently Offline Reputation: 2 (100%) |
QUOTE(timbo @ Nov 18, 2004 - 7:50 AM) QUOTE(Jen @ Nov 18, 2004 - 7:49 AM) Hopefully he'll use me for that. *sigh* Thanks Timmy..[right][snapback]208469[/snapback][/right] I am unsure if you are taking it the wrong way or not but, if it's the wrong way then that is not how I meant it. If you are not taking it the wrong way then just don't even mind this post. But, good luck John. [right][snapback]208473[/snapback][/right] I'm not taking it the wrong way.. -------------------- |
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Nov 18, 2004 - 10:16 AM
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 Enthusiast Joined Sep 5, '03 From Grapevine, TX Currently Offline Reputation: 0 (0%) |
Learn to fiberglass. Make something cool, realize it's not as good as you want it to be, and keep working on it until it's perfect. Then add onto it. That's probably the best advice I can give you as far as channeling your negative energy into something productive, such as a previous post suggested. It's certainly what I'd do.
Enjoy your car, enjoy your life, friends, and family. Take a few days off during the holidays and just drive. Don't speed. Don't be stupid. Just take a step back and enjoy life. I'm going through a similar bit right now, except it wasn't for quite as long--just over a year--however I can certainly understand how you feel. I lost my best friend more than I lost a lover. Keep going. You'll pull through in the end. -Brian |
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Nov 18, 2004 - 10:31 AM
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Enthusiast Joined Sep 21, '02 From Montgomery county/Rockville,MD Currently Offline Reputation: 0 (0%) |
^ If i was told that....And I was in johns shoes...I would just killmyself.
No sense whats ever..But its ok..Your from texas..you have an excuse John: talk to me later...Stop ****ing hiding |
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Nov 18, 2004 - 10:35 AM
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Enthusiast Joined Jul 14, '03 From Jacksonville, FL Currently Offline Reputation: 2 (100%) |
QUOTE(Hym3n @ Nov 18, 2004 - 10:16 AM) I lost my best friend more than I lost a lover. [right][snapback]208507[/snapback][/right] I like that.. because that is so true.. -------------------- |
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Nov 18, 2004 - 10:40 AM
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 Enthusiast Joined Feb 10, '03 From Connecticut Currently Offline Reputation: 11 (100%) |
QUOTE(Jonathan @ Nov 18, 2004 - 10:31 AM) ^ If i was told that....And I was in johns shoes...I would just killmyself. No sense whats ever..But its ok..Your from texas..you have an excuse John: talk to me later...Stop ****ing hiding [right][snapback]208511[/snapback][/right] Please dont speak the rest of the day. -------------------- |
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Nov 18, 2004 - 12:21 PM
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Enthusiast Joined Nov 26, '02 Currently Offline Reputation: 0 (0%) |
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Nov 18, 2004 - 1:11 PM
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 Enthusiast Joined May 15, '03 From Aurora IL Currently Offline Reputation: 0 (0%) |
there are only three things you'll ever have to remember about women :
1) you can't make a ho a housewife. 2) if a woman loves you, there is nothing she won't do for you - and nothing she won't do to you. 3) women respond well to archetypes. most dating books will cover #3 - it's the basis of their business.. chicks want one of three things : lover fighter provider figure out which one your woman wants, and be that. otherwise, you're wasting your time. This post has been edited by sinner96ST: Nov 18, 2004 - 1:11 PM |
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