Life Choice, Update page 2, read the first post though Options

[devilsden97]

ok, so this is gonna be another "piss and moan" thread...sorta.

So as some of you know, I am a college student, studyign to become an Engineer. My current place of employment has me working hand in hand with engineers, so it gives me real-time job experience in the field that I want to go into.

Well...so I thought that is what I wanted to go into. The last year of college (my first year as an Engineering student) has kicked my ass. [Prior I attend college for CAD. (computer aided drafting)] I failed Calc I, two times, and it has really messed up my scheduleing. (as if that was the worst of it.) After about the first 3 weeks, I honestly, legitimatly, hated getting up to go to class. Not because its early, or because its class, because i knew everyday was going to make me mad, or make me feel dumb.

I am begining to think I can't do the work that is associated to become an engineer. My calculus teacher says that I am not trying hard enough. Which could very well be true, but at the same time, i value friends, and other relationships to be as important, or more important then 35 calculus problems. So comes the notion of, "just try harder."

Maybe I just don't want to try harder, and becoming an engineer to me isnt worth the time, or dare I say sacrafice. I like the work I do now, even tho somedays I really hate, most days are decent.

When it comes to what else id be interested in doing, i cant think of anything that really intriques me enough to major in it.


I know some of you guys on here actually know me in person, and have talked to me. I also understand all dont know me very well, but I am just looking for any insite or personal experiences that may help me make some sort of a decison.

Thanks.

Miguel aka "Migga"


(really wasnt that pissy and moany...but its pretty complainy.)

ps. any questions just ask. Ill basicly share whatever, because i want some REAL unbias opinons.


Edit: Update Page 2.

This post has been edited by devilsden97: Jun 23, 2007 - 12:33 AM

[devilsden97]

Time for this thread to rear its ugly head again:

ok so its 1am, on a friday night, my buddy moved away to Albany, so im gonna spill my guts about school, and my future and work here again.


So the other day at my job, i was given the task to create a mixer (like a LARGE blender) for the resevoir to one of our machines. The actual shaft and "fins" or "paddles" needed to move the hot wax to the top of the resevoir and scrap the colder stuff on the sides and at the top, and push it to the bottom.

If ur like me...this is an AWSOME question, and i was VERY excited to get the chance to, I guess prove myself? in more of a designed based aspect, opposed to detailing out models, and modifying preexisting ones.

So the idea is the flow going to the top needed to be the same as the flow heading to the bottom....so its a CALCULUS problem that has to do with OPTIMIZATION.

F*CK SH*T B*LLS M*THER F*CKING UGH!

I sat there at my computer.....AWSTRUCK that I couldn't make it (to perform at its optimal level). For the first time at my job, I felt....stupid....like i actually couldnt do something.

So tonight, I was talkign with a friend I havnt seen in about 6 months. Talking abotu how our last sememsters when, Sadly to say I was embarressed to tlak about mine, and how i failed calculus. She said, "wow, u took calc? thats even more then i would have attempted." but I still felt like a loser.

I started to look around at job openings, and other areas of study to see what interests me, and I keep coming back to Engineer, and Architect. (in some form)

I keep questioning how much longer i can keep trying, not succeeding, and not give up. I think my biggest fear is just failing at "life." (when i say that, i mean, having a job that i like, and a job that can put food on the table, and a house over my head/familys head, and give me the lifestyle i want to life)


So, for the record, as of RIGHT now.

Im staying enrolled in Engineering, I am going to take calculus again, and again....and again, if I have to. Nothing else interests me enough, and satisfys what I want to achieve in my life.

i hope i dont have to do calc more then 1 more time....

Long read...I suck....sorry