I think I need help.., Do I need zoloft or something? Options

[monkeywrench]

I think I may be one of those people who needs to have an antidepressant to be happy, or maybe I've got the permanent teen-blues. Heres my problem, there are things in life that make me happy, but most people could care less either way (I think).

Things in life that make me happy: being in a stable relationship (having my guy tell me he loves me and all), adjusting to a new envrionment (everytime I changed schools in my academic career), making new friends, purchasing material things (you know how that is- ie, 'ooh wow! a jumbo pack of coloring pecils!'), driving a different car for a day (like driving my mom's Cougar to school one day)

Things in life that make me sad: being single, finally having been used to my 'new' environment, finally getting used to a car and seeing one on the road that's totally awesome, seeing other couples make out wether or not I'm with someone,

I've recently figured that the reason Im so harsh on myself (thinking of myself as a worthless piece of trash) is because I want to distract myself from something else that bothers me more. If you looked at my family, there's no real reason for me to get down on myself but I've done it forever and I can't stop. If I've been happy for maybe a week straight and something gets me down, I stay down. Is it like I need to learn to like myself? the only times I do, are when someone likes me or when I do something good and get praised for it. Also, when I think about stuff, I think really hard about all possible outcomes and take them to the harshest level and take that as my answer. Since I was little ive been picked on for my family's financial status or my height (I'm 17, 85lbs and 4'11''-the doc said im healthy).

What do you think? Am i messed up and need help or is this normal for a 17 year old?

[Random_Stranger]

Typical for a 17yr old boy. If you need someone to talk to or ask questions though, you can rely on me to give you the best possible advice based upon my own experiences. Although I am sure you have someone you can talk to. I usually find myself having friends a lot younger than me and they always ask my advice.



Being with someone when you are in a state like this is only seeking evaluation into adulthood. People tend to forget that being a boy and having an insecure woman DOES NOT EVALUATE YOU INTO A MAN and or vice versa for a female. The things that build you into one is the lessons in life, and eventually you will discover when it hits you, when you have became a man or a woman. Sometimes it takes many mistakes, sometimes you just grow into it, but never let anyone other than yourself evaluate you into the becoming of man or woman. You decide when you are ready when you feel it hit you.

You have problems right now and you are becoming an adult. You are still trying to find yourself and who you will be the rest of your life. You are unstable, but you will later become comfortable as you try new things and see the world. You are in transition to a child to adult. Right now, you have to still live somewhat like a child, but with the becoming of an adult mind, and this is very conflicting. Hang in there, and you will soon see what your elders have been speaking of when you didn't want to listen. Your heart will swell and you will fall in love with life. You will find yourself staring more at the stars in wonder, the mountains, and appreciating that beautiful scent after a rain.

I dunno where this is all coming from, lol. I guess from my own discoveries. Hang in there.

This post has been edited by Random_Stranger: Nov 1, 2008 - 5:40 AM