I think I need help.., Do I need zoloft or something? Options

[monkeywrench]

I think I may be one of those people who needs to have an antidepressant to be happy, or maybe I've got the permanent teen-blues. Heres my problem, there are things in life that make me happy, but most people could care less either way (I think).

Things in life that make me happy: being in a stable relationship (having my guy tell me he loves me and all), adjusting to a new envrionment (everytime I changed schools in my academic career), making new friends, purchasing material things (you know how that is- ie, 'ooh wow! a jumbo pack of coloring pecils!'), driving a different car for a day (like driving my mom's Cougar to school one day)

Things in life that make me sad: being single, finally having been used to my 'new' environment, finally getting used to a car and seeing one on the road that's totally awesome, seeing other couples make out wether or not I'm with someone,

I've recently figured that the reason Im so harsh on myself (thinking of myself as a worthless piece of trash) is because I want to distract myself from something else that bothers me more. If you looked at my family, there's no real reason for me to get down on myself but I've done it forever and I can't stop. If I've been happy for maybe a week straight and something gets me down, I stay down. Is it like I need to learn to like myself? the only times I do, are when someone likes me or when I do something good and get praised for it. Also, when I think about stuff, I think really hard about all possible outcomes and take them to the harshest level and take that as my answer. Since I was little ive been picked on for my family's financial status or my height (I'm 17, 85lbs and 4'11''-the doc said im healthy).

What do you think? Am i messed up and need help or is this normal for a 17 year old?

[MaskedMan]

Well this line right here gave me the impression it was a girl. "Things in life that make me happy: being in a stable relationship (having my guy tell me he loves me and all)".

4'11" and 85lbs is perfectly fine. At least you aren't 4'11" and 180lbs (my apologies to anyone here to meets that description, for those of you who do, hey, at least you aren't 4'11" and weigh 280lbs. [and for those of you who meet THAT description, well... I have nothing to tell you]).

CAMAricer is right. After highschool, nothing that happened matters anymore. It doesn't matter who you were, who your friends were, what your "label" was, or who made fun of you. The only thing that carries on after HS are your grades. Being 17 is tough AT THE TIME. Once you are past that point, even at 18, you'll realize how easy it actually was. It just depends on when you learn to accept yourself for you who are and how the world really is. Just feel better about yourself without depending on other people to make you feel good, because those people who make you feel good have the ability to make you feel completely worthless too.

This post has been edited by MaskedMan: Nov 3, 2008 - 3:17 AM