I think I need help.., Do I need zoloft or something? Options

[monkeywrench]

I think I may be one of those people who needs to have an antidepressant to be happy, or maybe I've got the permanent teen-blues. Heres my problem, there are things in life that make me happy, but most people could care less either way (I think).

Things in life that make me happy: being in a stable relationship (having my guy tell me he loves me and all), adjusting to a new envrionment (everytime I changed schools in my academic career), making new friends, purchasing material things (you know how that is- ie, 'ooh wow! a jumbo pack of coloring pecils!'), driving a different car for a day (like driving my mom's Cougar to school one day)

Things in life that make me sad: being single, finally having been used to my 'new' environment, finally getting used to a car and seeing one on the road that's totally awesome, seeing other couples make out wether or not I'm with someone,

I've recently figured that the reason Im so harsh on myself (thinking of myself as a worthless piece of trash) is because I want to distract myself from something else that bothers me more. If you looked at my family, there's no real reason for me to get down on myself but I've done it forever and I can't stop. If I've been happy for maybe a week straight and something gets me down, I stay down. Is it like I need to learn to like myself? the only times I do, are when someone likes me or when I do something good and get praised for it. Also, when I think about stuff, I think really hard about all possible outcomes and take them to the harshest level and take that as my answer. Since I was little ive been picked on for my family's financial status or my height (I'm 17, 85lbs and 4'11''-the doc said im healthy).

What do you think? Am i messed up and need help or is this normal for a 17 year old?

[nats_celica]

hey you probably dnt know me well no wait u actually don't... Just some advice i heard from a little birdie sitting on a twig was it helps to talk to professionals and get an outsiders perspective like what you've done now and, I'm in the same boat as u and got told you can never forgive what u will never forget... Letting your grudges out helps because then u somewhat feel like "phew i feel a whole lot lighter now" and yea sometimes wen u down you only see the negative in your life and don't focus on the positive... Here's a little thing i thought maybe you could try. u don't have to but it works.

Take a big piece of white paper and sticky tape it to your wall... Then whenever you feel like someone has said something that made you feel better or something that you liked wearing because it made u feel sexy or something that you saw made u happy... Just write it all down stick your favourite things on it and never write the bad stuff because unlike when your sad, when your happy you forget about the sad stuff but when your sad all you can think of about is (guessing you probably think the same as me) and you think " w.t.f is wrong me why do i act like this, no wonder no one likes me, I'm just a piece of ****" then what u do is u go and sit in a your room and u look at that lovely poster you made and you go read and wen your sad and thinking know one likes u, read the thing that those "no ones" have said that have made you feel good... Learn to be in control and control your mind don't let it control you... You say wen u wanna be sad and if u train your mind to think positively you will turn out a lot happier trust me... I know its not as easy as i say it is because I know how it feels but its something u got to do think of it as inspiration. Once again u don't need a guy to tell u he loves you that's just an added bonus be happy with yourself before you try to be happy with someone else and you'll see that you'll slowly stop processing those out comes in your head... Another good technique is when you are angry and frustrated and mad as hell try counting from 0 to 100 and then back again... Always amazes me how concentrated you gotta be and your mind starts focusing on the numbers and nothing else... Because until your calm you don't know how the situations look take a step back, breathe and start counting, on the added side it helps train your brain to listen to you not others and improves your maths at the same time... I guess there is nothing much to say but use tht pretty poster you need to make and be like OK that day i liked wearing this and i liked it wen someone said "hey you look gorgeous" then sit there and think "look there is one person that does care... The funny thing is the person u don't think cares sometimes cares the most and just cant show it. so next time stop and think " I'm gonna pop this negative bubble of mine I'm going to blast the radio to full ball put on my coolest clothing and be a girl dance!!!! helps deal with frustrations a lot better than bottling them up inside because one day that bottle will be come full and it will shatter shattering you in the process so for every negative thing u hear or see write a positive thing and take the negative and swap it with a positive and shove it in that bottle then deep down where that bottle is a whole lot of amazing things about u!!!

sorry if that was boring or lame but i think she needs someone to open up to!!