birthday/i dunno what im doin/need some answers Options

[95st-celica]

alright guys...i noticed theres a lot of senstive guys on here so i figured id just throw this out there and see what other people think...today is my birthday which is besides the point but i feel like nothing has been going right these past couple of months at all. I just recently got laid off from my job, i was supposed to start school again back in september and could not afford it (30k a semister) so i am going to take classes at community and live at home. then i get into a fight with my step father and he semi throws me out, gets into a fight with my mother who is very sensitive and now him and her are not talking ( and i hate to see my mom like this) my car is in a million pieces and even though i have almost everything to get it done i just feel like its never gonna happen...as much as i like doing my own work, its getting cold out and just doesnt feel like its gonna happen...(i'll make it happen, i have to i love that car)....i have no license...which sucks because i cant just go o0o yea let me just go out for the day...no... my buddy was going to throw me a party tongiht but he cant because something has come up and i now have no where to go...i mean i could go to the bar but i know im just going to end up getting into a fight and spending a lot of money...so that really not worth it... and to top it all off im havin girl problems...which pretty much puts the iceing on the cake...that is what fcuks you up the most...i dont care who you are...the reason im writing this is because as much as people on here fight back and forth we really are a pretty tight community and im just looking for answers at this point. the girl told me she was gonna text me yesterday(as stupid and chilidish as it sounds) and i didnt get anything...so i decided after killing a bottle of absoulte rasberry vodka and some wawa rasberry ice tea that i would call her up and give her a piece of my mind...kind of went somethin like this( YO! i dont know WHAT your deal is but i cant be doin this anymore, you didnt call me, text me, whatever, im fcukin done! im fcukin done!, dont call me dont text me dont do NOTHIN! im done!!) so now that im waking up, still half bent i think i shouldnt have called her but im kinda glad i did because i got it off my chest.....it just sucks caus i really like this girl but everytime i think she does something like call me or make plans, nothing ever works out...i guess it just pretty much my luck and i should get use to it but i just wanted to see what some people on here think....thanks for listening to my nonesense...im usually not one for posting crap like this but at this point i have no other resort...so anyone that thinks this thread is garbage or pointless just do me a favor a go fcuk yourself.. really...i was about an inch away from snapping and killing someone last night...writing pointless carp on here to get my anger out doesnt really hurt anyone.....thanks guys

This post has been edited by 95st-celica: Nov 22, 2008 - 10:26 AM