birthday/i dunno what im doin/need some answers Options

[95st-celica]

alright guys...i noticed theres a lot of senstive guys on here so i figured id just throw this out there and see what other people think...today is my birthday which is besides the point but i feel like nothing has been going right these past couple of months at all. I just recently got laid off from my job, i was supposed to start school again back in september and could not afford it (30k a semister) so i am going to take classes at community and live at home. then i get into a fight with my step father and he semi throws me out, gets into a fight with my mother who is very sensitive and now him and her are not talking ( and i hate to see my mom like this) my car is in a million pieces and even though i have almost everything to get it done i just feel like its never gonna happen...as much as i like doing my own work, its getting cold out and just doesnt feel like its gonna happen...(i'll make it happen, i have to i love that car)....i have no license...which sucks because i cant just go o0o yea let me just go out for the day...no... my buddy was going to throw me a party tongiht but he cant because something has come up and i now have no where to go...i mean i could go to the bar but i know im just going to end up getting into a fight and spending a lot of money...so that really not worth it... and to top it all off im havin girl problems...which pretty much puts the iceing on the cake...that is what fcuks you up the most...i dont care who you are...the reason im writing this is because as much as people on here fight back and forth we really are a pretty tight community and im just looking for answers at this point. the girl told me she was gonna text me yesterday(as stupid and chilidish as it sounds) and i didnt get anything...so i decided after killing a bottle of absoulte rasberry vodka and some wawa rasberry ice tea that i would call her up and give her a piece of my mind...kind of went somethin like this( YO! i dont know WHAT your deal is but i cant be doin this anymore, you didnt call me, text me, whatever, im fcukin done! im fcukin done!, dont call me dont text me dont do NOTHIN! im done!!) so now that im waking up, still half bent i think i shouldnt have called her but im kinda glad i did because i got it off my chest.....it just sucks caus i really like this girl but everytime i think she does something like call me or make plans, nothing ever works out...i guess it just pretty much my luck and i should get use to it but i just wanted to see what some people on here think....thanks for listening to my nonesense...im usually not one for posting crap like this but at this point i have no other resort...so anyone that thinks this thread is garbage or pointless just do me a favor a go fcuk yourself.. really...i was about an inch away from snapping and killing someone last night...writing pointless carp on here to get my anger out doesnt really hurt anyone.....thanks guys

This post has been edited by 95st-celica: Nov 22, 2008 - 10:26 AM

[Random_Stranger]

Happy birthday


I didn't bother to read because you haven't told me nothing I haven't been through. Just stick it through man, life has it's ups and downs. Sometimes to humble you, sometimes to reward you, and sometimes just because things were not meant to be and perhaps you should be focusing on something else or making more of yourself. Either way, life is all about learning, and if you have an open heart as well as an open ear, there is much to gain. Otherwise you are going to be like some of the creatures that walk this earth, who are only concerned with eating, fighting, and FOOking. Sometimes you have to be torn down in order to rebuild yourself stronger for the tests of times, you know what I mean?

As far as success goes, don't trip. I got the best advice from a stranger buying porno 2 years ago. He said "Success cannot be measured" (Actually he said "Success is measured in many different ways", but I like how I put it) Which means that you go until you are content with your life pretty much, and if you are not happy, then you go and be happy.

[95st-celica]

Happy birthday


I didn't bother to read because you haven't told me nothing I haven't been through. Just stick it through man, life has it's ups and downs. Sometimes to humble you, sometimes to reward you, and sometimes just because things were not meant to be and perhaps you should be focusing on something else or making more of yourself. Either way, life is all about learning, and if you have an open heart as well as an open ear, there is much to gain. Otherwise you are going to be like some of the creatures that walk this earth, who are only concerned with eating, fighting, and FOOking. Sometimes you have to be torn down in order to rebuild yourself stronger for the tests of times, you know what I mean?

As far as success goes, don't trip. I got the best advice from a stranger buying porno 2 years ago. He said "Success cannot be measured" (Actually he said "Success is measured in many different ways", but I like how I put it) Which means that you go until you are content with your life pretty much, and if you are not happy, then you go and be happy.

i knew you would proably say somethin...thanks for the support bro...as far as my step father goes i respect the man and really dont push him to much...as for everything else i can only roll with the punches at this point...i mean im at a pretty low time but i always try to look on the bright side of things...it can only get better from here and your absoutly right it makes me stronger every day...just at this point i have no car, no license, no job, no money, no girl, no nothin lol...but its whatever it'll all work its self out eventually...thanks again for the support though man...btw your car is comming along really well...i like what your doin with it..keep it up

[Random_Stranger]

Happy birthday


I didn't bother to read because you haven't told me nothing I haven't been through. Just stick it through man, life has it's ups and downs. Sometimes to humble you, sometimes to reward you, and sometimes just because things were not meant to be and perhaps you should be focusing on something else or making more of yourself. Either way, life is all about learning, and if you have an open heart as well as an open ear, there is much to gain. Otherwise you are going to be like some of the creatures that walk this earth, who are only concerned with eating, fighting, and FOOking. Sometimes you have to be torn down in order to rebuild yourself stronger for the tests of times, you know what I mean?

As far as success goes, don't trip. I got the best advice from a stranger buying porno 2 years ago. He said "Success cannot be measured" (Actually he said "Success is measured in many different ways", but I like how I put it) Which means that you go until you are content with your life pretty much, and if you are not happy, then you go and be happy.

i knew you would proably say somethin...thanks for the support bro...as far as my step father goes i respect the man and really dont push him to much...as for everything else i can only roll with the punches at this point...i mean im at a pretty low time but i always try to look on the bright side of things...it can only get better from here and your absoutly right it makes me stronger every day...just at this point i have no car, no license, no job, no money, no girl, no nothin lol...but its whatever it'll all work its self out eventually...thanks again for the support though man...btw your car is comming along really well...i like what your doin with it..keep it up

Thank you very much. There is much to be said about personal experiences that I find so exciting to share with others, but I will not go into it. I wish there was a way to take you out my dollar, and just talk to you about how things worked themselves out, even when they looked hopeless. But I know your chin is up and you face it with a smile, you don't strike me at all as the weak type, and you seem to have a very good head on your shoulders. I know that if and when (if not already) you have chosen to embrace the hardship and humble yourself, acknowledge this and whatever voice that creeps inside your head (call it Hope), listen to it and acknowledge it.

I have been without, and when I accept it (all it takes is a thought, it really does, at least for me) I soon find myself never without. And if I were without, I do not realize it.

I have went without a job for a year, with unemployment ending after a few months because I didn't make much. When I would stress out, things got worse. I don't expect everyone to believe in the same things as I, but I did find myself praying and I would hear that voice (it was my own) say "Hey! Maybe God wants you to actually try to do something, like go to school. You haven't tried that Faustino, give it a shot before you decide to kill yourself." And just with telling myself I would go back, I got offered full time (because I was only working 15hrs/wk and living away from home *Bills, yikes!*), my ex and I made up when we were together (we were fighting) and my bills got paid somehow.

For me, when I have faced my fears whether being a lone and looking stupid while enjoying the things I love to do with others, no matter how stupid I looked or embarrassed, I took it on and embraced it. Accepting it, that if this is what I need to experience to know what it is like, then I will do it, so that I may never fear it again, I end up never being alone doing those things again. Even now, I am without a job, but going to school. Which is how I was able to fix up my car and have money for school and other things etc....

I will purchase things and resell them if need be, I am getting ideas and trying to put them to use. I like being broke, because I am then humble, so that I can still dream and still try to better myself. I love not having a girlfriend, so when I actually do find that person, she will be worth the time I spent without. I love not having a job, because I am focusing on school, and when I am ready, I will have a better future than the guys making big money working at the oil fields right now (that is the big thing here for quick easy money, though these guys have nothing to fall back on if and when they get hurt).

So you see, there are pros and cons to it all. I know most of this isn't worth reading, and sometimes I do not make sense. But know that you never went through this alone, because a lot of us have been there before. We feel your pain, and if you need anyone to talk to, we are all here for you.




****** Just wanted to add


As far as girl trouble, women are like that man. They will never know what it is like to be truly alone (so long as they take care of themselves), because men will always be at them. The trick is to show them you are different and deserve more. But aside from that, when the right one comes along, you will know. Never let the troubles of the world bring you down.

Julius Cesar used to reward those who would mock him or try to make him a fool. Because if he had them executed, he believed it would show weakness. I believe in that and try my best not to act out with emotions, because if you are mentally defeated, then perhaps you are already defeated physically as well. So even if I despise someone, I am still polite and smile at them.

This post has been edited by Random_Stranger: Nov 22, 2008 - 4:49 PM