Welcome to the ever-collapsing world of John... Options

[NEVERSTOP]

I will seriously NEVER get women.

hey john what was your theroy on girls agian?

naw ment to add to this to my last post but got distracted:

bout of depression after the end of a long term relationship/friendship is normal..

sink into it.. relish in it... take it for all its worth.. feel the pain.. then get over it and move on... its a part of life that sucks but it diffently makes the good times better

life is a roller coaster man... ups and downs

[Mynzeyes]

I will seriously NEVER get women.

hey john what was your theroy on girls agian?

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girls...

are fxcking stupid...

that's my theory.

-John-

[BlackCelicaGT94]

sorry to get away from the real issue - but i see the resemblence




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Anyways john - keep ur head up - THINGS HAPPEN FOR A REASON!

take this experience and learn from it

[Mynzeyes]

that's such a bad drawing... . i did so much better on Andason. .

-John-

[BlackCelicaGT94]

i meant that :-)

[BlackCelicaGT94]

Ur sight entertains me john - incase u care

[Mynzeyes]

Ur sight entertains me john - incase u care
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i do, and thank you. i taught myself HTML just to make that stupid site. :x. cause jen was gonna charge me to code it...before she liked me. :x.

[BlackCelicaGT94]

even if i liked u i still would charge u - cuz im broke :-)

[Blakout16]

mmm that was deep. i cant say like the others i've had that sammme feeling but, i have got cheaten one once... that was sh*tty :-/. hey keep ur head up kid.

[timbo]

John, I am sure you know who this and the background between someone and I, how long it lasted.

With that being said, coming from my experience from that, the only way I got over that is finding both something and someone to take my mind off of her. After some time passed I can say I'm over her.

So, just find someone and or something and use them as your escape from the past and you'll pull through it.

[Jen]

John, I am sure you know who this and the background between someone and I, how long it lasted.

With that being said, coming from my experience from that, the only way I got over that is finding both something and someone to take my mind off of her. After some time passed I can say I'm over her.

So, just find someone and or something and use them as your escape from the past and you'll pull through it.
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Hopefully he'll use me for that. *sigh* Thanks Timmy..

[Jonathan]

if you don't feel like reading it...i don't care.

background: 6+ years of my life is gone...and despite the desire to be "friends"...we can't, because any attempt to talk to her, i'm accused of being nosey, and it's no longer "any of my concern" or "business".

here are some words to marinate on...give your feedback...but i can't promise you that i'll even give a damn...

Mynzeyes: she's just so consumed
Mynzeyes: in making "her own life"
Mynzeyes: that i'm being completely shut out
Mynzeyes: it's like
Mynzeyes: there's no line to differentiate between total involvement
Mynzeyes: and complete segregation.
Mynzeyes: it's one or the other.
Mynzeyes: so when i tryt o simply talk to her
Mynzeyes: i'm being nosey
Mynzeyes: because she's so amazed by the fact that she's "her own person"
Mynzeyes: it's like she's so ****ing thrilled
Mynzeyes: that i'm no longer there
Mynzeyes: like i was some huge burden on her
Mynzeyes: that now...she's free.
Mynzeyes: she's no longer a captive
Mynzeyes: and she "controls herself"
Mynzeyes: and it's just absolutely mesmorizing to think that i could have caused such anguish in her life
Mynzeyes: to make things so much ****ing better without me
Mynzeyes: i wish
Mynzeyes: i could just ****ING GET OVER IT
Mynzeyes: BECAUSE THIS DOES NOTHING FOR ME
Mynzeyes: all i do
Mynzeyes: is sit here
Mynzeyes: and ****ing stress over it
Mynzeyes: and it gets me ABSOLUTELY NOTHING
Mynzeyes: it makes me WORSE
Mynzeyes: but i do it anyway
Mynzeyes: i still...
Mynzeyes: would do anything in this ****ing world for her
Mynzeyes: i would still die for her
Mynzeyes: but she wouldn't even ****ing notice
Mynzeyes: and it eats me
Mynzeyes: from the inside out
Mynzeyes: until i will only remain a shell of a person
Mynzeyes: because i'm too weak to stop it
Mynzeyes: ok
Mynzeyes: let's put everything aside
Mynzeyes: except for me and her
Mynzeyes: and what we had.
Mynzeyes: what did i get out of this...
Mynzeyes: did i get what i wanted?
Mynzeyes: no
Mynzeyes: did i fail at my "mission" in life?
Mynzeyes: yes
Mynzeyes: did i lose everything i've ever had
Mynzeyes: and ever wanted?
Mynzeyes: yes
Mynzeyes: do i understand ANYTHING about it?
Mynzeyes: no.
Mynzeyes: did i learn anything?
Mynzeyes: yes.
Mynzeyes: what did i learn?
Mynzeyes: that there is nothing more to life than CONSTANTLY BEING DISAPPOINTED.
Mynzeyes: and constantly longing for that one bit of happiness
Mynzeyes: that is always right there...
Mynzeyes: but you just can't ****ing grab it
Mynzeyes: because to do that
Mynzeyes: would be to achieve
Mynzeyes: but once you achieve true happiness
Mynzeyes: there's no reason to live after that..
Mynzeyes: but the thing they don't tell you
Mynzeyes: is that being SO close to said achievement
Mynzeyes: and it moving away
Mynzeyes: constantly wears at your soul
Mynzeyes: and after so long...you have nothing left.
Mynzeyes: you don't know who you are
Mynzeyes: you don't know what you want
Mynzeyes: you dont' know where to go
Mynzeyes: you are lost...
Mynzeyes: which brings us to where i am.
Mynzeyes: lost.
Mynzeyes: soulless.
Mynzeyes: i have no motivation to do anything
Mynzeyes: seeking true happiness is seemingly endless
Mynzeyes: and mesmorizingly painful
Mynzeyes: throughout every step you must take.
Mynzeyes: soooooooooooooooooooooooooooo
Mynzeyes: i cry.
Mynzeyes: and i wish.
Mynzeyes: and i hope.
Mynzeyes: but all it does is dig me deeper into my abyss.
Mynzeyes: because my ship isn't coming back...
Mynzeyes: my ship seemingly doesn't notice that it's a man light...
Mynzeyes: it's like...
Mynzeyes: wishing that your deceased loved one would return
Mynzeyes: no matter what
Mynzeyes: nothing is bringing them back
Mynzeyes: but you can't help but wish
Mynzeyes: and think
Mynzeyes: and all it does is hurt
Mynzeyes: it solves nothing
Mynzeyes: but you just can't ****ing help it
Mynzeyes: because you're so attached
Mynzeyes: and no matter who tells you your anguish is futile
Mynzeyes: you don't care
Mynzeyes: because you feel so strongly about something
Mynzeyes: that it consumes your entire being
Mynzeyes: no matter how much you KNOW that things will never be the same
Mynzeyes: you dwell on how much you want it to be
Mynzeyes: people say...it's because of "comfort" with that person
Mynzeyes: or that situation
Mynzeyes: but they don't have a ****ing clue
Mynzeyes: sure it's comfortable
Mynzeyes: but that's because your heart, mind, and soul are intertwined with something
Mynzeyes: and to sever that
Mynzeyes: is to shred the threads of life...
Mynzeyes: much like the shearn sweater of yesteryear
Mynzeyes: such is your being
Mynzeyes: because of 1 single person
Mynzeyes: in a world of however many billion...
Mynzeyes: 1 person..possesses the power to destroy someone
Mynzeyes: from the inside
Mynzeyes: which is far far worse than any physical pain you could ever fathom
Mynzeyes: so...
Mynzeyes: i don't care
Mynzeyes: what other people think of her
Mynzeyes: no one knew her like i did
Mynzeyes: no one can change what happened.
Mynzeyes: no one can change the pain
Mynzeyes: the happiness
Mynzeyes: no one can understand my love
Mynzeyes: people can understand love
Mynzeyes: but they can never understand MY love.
Mynzeyes: and...neither will i...
Mynzeyes: as much as i don't want to, and know i shouldn't, and know it's not a good idea
Mynzeyes: but i wish
Mynzeyes: i wish she could see what i've told you
Mynzeyes: i don't know that she would even understand me
Mynzeyes: at all.
Mynzeyes: i'm drained...
Mynzeyes: mentally.
Mynzeyes: emotionally
Mynzeyes: and physically.
Mynzeyes: again.
Mynzeyes: sigh
Mynzeyes: i wish i could keep articulating myself
Mynzeyes: but
Mynzeyes: i just can't...

-John-
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Damn John...We probably known each other for the longest and there was a point in time where Life was nothing but milk and cookies for you. Im sad to hear this..I didnt even read half way thru your reply till i had enough. It seems like your life has beeen taken from you..Understandable..But John...be a soldier and work at it..If that fails....Graduate school and relocate

[timbo]

Hopefully he'll use me for that. *sigh* Thanks Timmy..[right][snapback]208469[/snapback][/right]

I am unsure if you are taking it the wrong way or not but, if it's the wrong way then that is not how I meant it. If you are not taking it the wrong way then just don't even mind this post.

But, good luck John.

[Jen]

Hopefully he'll use me for that. *sigh* Thanks Timmy..[right][snapback]208469[/snapback][/right]

I am unsure if you are taking it the wrong way or not but, if it's the wrong way then that is not how I meant it. If you are not taking it the wrong way then just don't even mind this post.

But, good luck John.
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I'm not taking it the wrong way..

[Hym3n]

Learn to fiberglass. Make something cool, realize it's not as good as you want it to be, and keep working on it until it's perfect. Then add onto it. That's probably the best advice I can give you as far as channeling your negative energy into something productive, such as a previous post suggested. It's certainly what I'd do.

Enjoy your car, enjoy your life, friends, and family. Take a few days off during the holidays and just drive. Don't speed. Don't be stupid. Just take a step back and enjoy life. I'm going through a similar bit right now, except it wasn't for quite as long--just over a year--however I can certainly understand how you feel. I lost my best friend more than I lost a lover.

Keep going. You'll pull through in the end.

-Brian

[Jonathan]

^ If i was told that....And I was in johns shoes...I would just killmyself.

No sense whats ever..But its ok..Your from texas..you have an excuse


John: talk to me later...Stop ****ing hiding

[Jen]

I lost my best friend more than I lost a lover.
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I like that.. because that is so true..

[Supersprynt]

^ If i was told that....And I was in johns shoes...I would just killmyself.

No sense whats ever..But its ok..Your from texas..you have an excuse


John: talk to me later...Stop ****ing hiding
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Please dont speak the rest of the day.

[hioctane]

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This post has been edited by hioctane: Jul 31, 2005 - 1:19 PM

[sinner96ST]

there are only three things you'll ever have to remember about women :


1) you can't make a ho a housewife.

2) if a woman loves you, there is nothing she won't do for you - and nothing she won't do to you.

3) women respond well to archetypes.


most dating books will cover #3 - it's the basis of their business.. chicks want one of three things :

lover
fighter
provider

figure out which one your woman wants, and be that. otherwise, you're wasting your time.

This post has been edited by sinner96ST: Nov 18, 2004 - 1:11 PM